Avoiding Crowd for Peace of Mind.

       Avoiding Crowd for Peace of Mind

                     MONOLOGUE-

I have anthropophobia — fear of people. If I see a crowd from now on, I will avoid going to that place. It’s not always the crowd that scares me, but the people in that crowd are dangerous for my soul. They don’t physically harm me, but their questions do.

All those harmful questions come like shooting arrows straight into my heart. Actually, I like going to places where people are unaware of me. Some people say that loneliness hurts, but in reality, loneliness feels like freedom and peace — something introverts crave.

Being an introvert isn’t bad, but people assume that introverts are broken-hearted. I like sitting on park benches and by the seashore, just listening to the sound of the waves. It calms my soul in a way that no human conversation ever could.

I get scared when a crowded train arrives at the station. I let three or four trains pass before boarding the fifth — not because I don’t know how to climb in, but because I want to protect my introverted soul from the chaos.

I’ve stopped attending gatherings and special occasions to avoid the harmful questions people ask. Strangely, I find comfort in the smiles of strangers — those fleeting, genuine moments of connection without expectations.

I’ve seen people sit together at one table, laughing and talking, only to backbite as soon as someone leaves. It’s better to enjoy your own company — no stress, no worries.

To me, freedom means messy hair, lying on my bed, scrolling through YouTube and Instagram, wearing an oversized t-shirt and daddy’s loose boxers, and just existing without anyone’s judgment.

Escaping to the mountains is one of my dreams, but I know that even there, overthinking thoughts will follow me and tear me to pieces.

You’ll find me where the crowd is thin — and the best example is my home, lol. These 6'3" types might betray you, so it’s better not to go to crowded places if you want peace of mind.

Life’s incidents have made me cautious about stepping out of my door. I’ve started avoiding crowded places — and trust me, I’m at a stage in life where no one is allowed to tell me how to live. I will make sure nobody gets on my last nerve.